Mom nearly had a heart attack when she saw me underneath the pony's legs to find out if it was a boy or a girl. I barely had to look to find out that it was a boy. She was beginning to get me pretty hot, which I didn't think would happen but it helped, because the feelings just worked together just clicked. She always comes in and sings "Waltzing Matilda" to me when I can't sleep, or like tonight when I have bad dreams. It's not that I don't want her to sing to me, it is just that there was this strange man in my dream singing just that song in Mom's voice, and it frightened me so much I could hardly move. And about twenty feet away from me there was this man with long hair and very large, callused hands. Mom doesn't know her little girl the way she thinks she does, hmmm? I decided his name should be Troy, like the pony in Mrs. Zippy, who works at the stables, said he would make a nameplate for me that says TROY in big letters, and he'll hang it right in front so that everyone will know his name when they see him. I opened her and I told her she was pretty, did she know that? Troy is still too young to ride, but in two months I'll be able to get on and just race through the fields! On the way home from the stables Dad said that Troy and I have the same birthday, because when a pony is given as a gift to someone who will love him, they share everything. I'm glad I don't know where he came from, because this way, it is almost as if Heaven sent him down just for me. I have had nightmare after nightmare and have finally chosen to avoid sleeping altogether. Before I had even touched her she wanted me to know her name .
I kept walking toward him, even though I didn't want to at all because he frightened me so much.
Mom couldn't believe it when she saw it and she started asking Dad how he managed to do it without anyone knowing.
Dad said it would ruin the surprise if she knew, and he's right.
Donna gave me the blouse I saw in the window at Horne's Department Store, and I know she bought it with her allowances because she was saving all of them for a long time and wouldn't tell me why. It is white and silky and has tiny embroidered roses all over it, but not so many that it looks bad. On Donna's birthday, I'm going to get her something extra special too. I went downstairs and Dad told Mom and I to get in the car and not to ask any questions until we got to where we were going. I didn't mind because I thought maybe something would slip out of Dad's mouth, but it didn't.
My cousin Madeline, Maddy for short, is visiting tomorrow for a whole week. One night I had a dream that Dad moved us to a house deep in the woods and my bedroom had a big tree outside the window with two songbirds nesting there. I just kept quiet so that I wouldn't lose my surprise.